it’s more than that…

I just got to the place where I can rest, I’m alone. Sitting on my bed, listening to Pandora, letting my mind rest. But even then, my mind swirls – the conversations I’ve had today envelope me, the heart ache that is surrounding. My own circumstances and needs press on me. The realizations of life change are ever-present.

In 4 months and 7 days I’ll get married. My last name will be different, my town may or may not be different. Everything is changing, life is moving faster than you know.

It’s not just planning a weddding that’s overwhelming, but that in and of itself could be.

It’s not just the thought of moving to a new town, but that alone is overwhelming.

And it’s not just the thought of changing my last name, living with a boy, and saying I do to forever, but that is drastic.

It’s more than that.