I can’t tell you how many blog posts I’ve written… or started writing about this week, and the events that have transpired. I know several of you read my “password protected post” which was not in anyway shape or form an attempt to gain more readers, or a marketing ploy (as I was accused of) but was simply because I did not want the whole free world (aka all of facebook) if they chose to have access to some very personal details of my life. I would have sent an email, but I have a feeling, that less of you would have read it, there is something about anything hidden that makes us even more intrigued.
This week has been a doozy for me emotionally, the ups and the downs, and the consistency of nausea.
This morning during my Beth Moore study, on David, Seeking a Heart Like His, which I absolutely love. (more on that later) I had the chance to process through all of my emotions that I experienced on Monday during the biopsy.
1. The unexpected. It has been said, to “expect the unexpected.” Which, I feel like I do a pretty good job of in the daily of life, but on this very day, it was a scary reality.
2. The release. I had been thinking about it for so long, well, since December (which is a long time to think about a biopsy) and I knew that at the end of the day I was going to be okay with the result no matter what it was, malignant or benign. That God, in His goodness, would carry me through and that He would work it together for good. And that, more than that, I needed to let go, and give it all to God. I am His anyway. Completely.
Today’s message was so good. It was about God, His goodness, remembering what He has done for us, and to believe that He is Good! We camped out in 2 Sam 7:28 for quite awhile, I was captivated by the thought of the Davidic covenant, the promise of a new leader, the lineage of Christ!
For you are God, O Sovereign Lord. Your words are truth, and you have promised these good things to your servant.
We talked through this verse, quite a bit.
1. HE is God.
2. His word is TRUTH. meaning it is TRUE. not only that, but the NIV says, His words are TRUSTWORTHY.
3. He has promised GOOD THINGS.
In all of this, I was so thankful, for these basic foundational truths of my walk with God. The clarity of it. And how this week, these 3 things were made real in my life, and I’m so thankful. The result of the test was good. Everything is fine. Cancer free!
If you were a part of this journey with me in prayer, you have NO idea how God used you. I hope I shed a little bit of light on it in this post. Thank you so very much.